I find myself in a crucial season of transition. The Lord is teaching me so much through ways that are continuous of His theme of faithfulness in my life, yet feel so fresh and new. For those of you who don't know, I recently moved to a small town in Texas. My daily life consists of online college classes, church, and interaction with the few friends I have on this side of the Red River (or the Atlantic Ocean). Much like my life in London, I have no defined schedule outside of a few regular weekly appointments. My formerly so-busy-I-couldn't-breathe life that I lived in high school and college has slowed to a gentle halt. God has called me away...and it has been some journey. I used to (literally) block off every hour of each day in my color coded calendar. Now, I have to remind myself that I should put meetings in my calendar so when I look back on my week, it's not completely blank.
It is no secret that God tremendously changed me during the time I lived in London. In December, I returned to familiar places with some hesitancy, not knowing how the new and improved me would feel in the place I once called home. Yet now, as I walk in obedience and pursue walking with the Lord here in Texas, something special is happening. My very person is shifting as I walk through the culture shock of living in America once again and the feeling of not knowing "where I fit" that comes through that experience. In the stillness, He is shaping me. When God strips you of the (physical) nearness of friends, it is amazing how much free time opens up! I am learning the discipline of accomplishing necessary tasks - reading, homework, grocery shopping, laundry, etc. without a professor, friend, or boss nearby who will take notice if none of it gets done.
In my phone calls, homework assignments, hard conversations, work outs, eating habits, and sleep schedule He is inserting His wisdom and guidance. He is holding my hand through the boring, the lonely, the mundane, and the unfamiliar. He is teaching me that I serve Him alone and before all other friends, His voice is what I need to hear. He is teaching me to be diligent in my relationships loving on my dearest friends and family at this distance and my newest acquaintances who are near. He is reminding me what it is to be "the new girl" and that my confidence and person lie in Him. He is making me to rely on Him in the everyday, the unexciting. Because this life is His and He is brought glory in my daily diligence, in the daily grind.
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